Being and Time

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OK, that title may not be original with me, fair enough. But I find myself ever drawn to trees and clouds. Trees are permanent testimonies to life while clouds capture the temporal epoche which moves from being to nonbeing in a continuous vanishing point.

P1000427Trees represent being: the hard nerve ends of sentient life, the enduring ones, the witnesses to the ephemeral who persist, who silently or only by whispering see it all pass by. In winter trees reveal their secret geometries, a geometry of meaning that eludes us mere humans. We see their branches arch, bend, twist, like ballet dancers frozen into permanence. Each bend, each shoot, each twig–their emergence mustP1000425 be governed by some grand law of physics, of life, that defies us to see it as anything other than chaos. Ah, but that is their trick: it is not chaotic at all but mirrors in its woody fibers the nerve endings of sentience. Silent, seemingly permanent, quietly growing… trees speak being.

 

IMG_4653Clouds–the stuff whereof dreams are made. They entrance  with sheer colored beauty. They mesmerize us and tantalize us to love them even as they vanish before our longing eyes. No wait! we cry to them as the sun sets and time cruelly mocks our wishes. Clouds are often used to suggest heaven, which is odd if you think about it. Heaven is supposed to be eternal but clouds are the precise opposite of eternity. They are time itself: massing, unfolding, floating, scurrying along in the celestial vault, dissipating into nothingness. Like us. IMG_4752Clouds remind us that the permanence we so long for is illusion. We are but clouds on the horizon. Or better yet, the bird that flies through the great man’s hall in winter time. Venerable Bede captures that moment of warmth, light, joy as the bird flies from darkness through presence back out into utter darkness again. Those are clouds mocking us, luring us to hope for an eternity that cannot be for us.

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Halloween: what is going on?

Halloween-Hero-1-HWhen I was in seventh grade I refused to go trick-or-treating because I felt that I was too old.  I do recall looking wistfully at my brother as he excitedly went off but it seemed childish to dress up and beg for candy. Halloween was for children and it was on October 31st.

Now Halloween has become a month (if not longer) event and everyone in the world gets costumed up and celebrates. Never mind that the origin was as the eve of All Saints Day.  Religion has nothing to do with Halloween but lawn decorations, risqué costumes, and parties does. With an added dose of apparently licensed vandalism.

What happened?  Well, I have three explanations to offer:

1. As with most holidays in the United States companies figured out that they could 03-wdw-halloween-merch-displaymerchandize it and so it became an excuse to sell all sorts of products: from plastic decorations, lights, pumpkins and assorted whatever to stale candy (on the shelves in August) and costumes (for women the racier the better.  Why do all the costumes for women look like slut wear?)  It is all about selling stuff to us.

 

 

2. A second reason is that because we no longer have the halloween-costumes-for-adults-women-je8h26brrhythm of religious ‘holy days’ or some sense that there is a bigger context in which to see ourselves we need some focus in our lives and these secularized holidays fill the desperate need for meaning. So we begin Halloween in all-saints-graphicAugust, Christmas in September (check out the stores in your area), and St. Valentine’s Day in January, and so on. We put up decorations weeks before the events as we thirst for something important in our lives.  Plastic blowup lawn ornaments seem, in some strange way, stand-ins for genuine contact with a reality larger than TV and the mall.  Maybe we do not go trick-or-treating for candy but we are clearly seeking something.

 

3. Adults no longer want to be, well, adults.  We want to be young (cue multimillion dollar industry which relentlessly reminds us to stay as such) and we want theadutlsaschild carefree (were they ever?) days of childhood.  So we dress up in costumes for work and for the string of parties. We act silly and use Halloween as an excuse to play dress up, rivaling the kids for attention.

 

 

Of course the reader may decide that this is just me being a sourpuss and a killjoy and that adults love Halloween and have rediscovered their playful selves.  But I am not buying that.  Are you?

New Beginnings–an import from my Cowbird story collection

Labor Day always reminds me of the end of summer (well, everyone is reminded of that!) but the beginning of school. OK, that is shared by many as well. But for people like me, we have never left school. I teach at the college level so I am anxiously awaiting the beginning of the fall semester. For most of my life September marks the beginning of a new academic year.
When I was young, I was the student, looking forward to new books, new teachers, new adventures, if some years a bit more apprehensively than others. Now I am on the other side of the desk and am wondering who will be in my classes and what will we explore together. I still get new books and supplies, some new clothes. But now I get the lists of new students and I always enter the classroom full of hope and promise, and excitement.
I love the quick shift here in the Northeast from sultry summer to crystal clear fall days.* For me autumn is the season of evolution–evolution into new ideas and new people, but always tinged by the touch of sadness. Time moves on and autumn so clearly, and gloriously, reminds us of that fact. Even as it relentlessly carries us towards the darkness of winter, it does so with a spectacular array of colors and e-ray days .
So, I anticipate the new academic year which begins right after Labor Day as I stand on the dock, waiting for the ferry to cross over the Sound and return me to the world of ideas and to the students who will surely look up from their cell phone and muse as to why I get so excited about mediaeval universals and the idea that one could prove the existence of God simply by thinking about it.
*If you are wondering why there is an asterisk next to the comment about clear fall days, here in New York we have the still raw memories of the events on 9/11/01. That day was the quintessential fall day: clear, bright, sunny, perfect. Until it was not. A “9/11 day” reminds us of the ephemeral nature of life. But let us focus instead on new beginnings and a new school year.
To any reader who is returning to school, in whatever guise, good luck! Then again, are we not all in school simply by living in the world?
And now you can decide what the bat image means…

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